I still wanted to write, though. In university I pursued a bachelor's in journalism and learned how to better my starts as well as strengthen my endings. It still didn't improve all that middle stuff, though. I couldn't do a thing with those novels I had begun earlier and ended up creating a fourth! But it didn't last for long. My dream of becoming an author was tucked on the shelf along with my secret longing of becoming a ballerina.
Just short of a year ago I started writing again. I couldn't help myself, really. Characters were coming alive in my head and insisted I write down their stories! (Sort of like Samantha on that Bewitched episode when she created the characters of a play she was writing and they wouldn't go away when she was done!)
I began to realize that even though I have trouble expressing myself from beginning to end, or even finishing a writing project, that doesn't mean I can't write. Or shouldn't write. I might not be the best out there, but I won't get any better unless I practice and have honest people tell me where I can improve.
If you want to write, don't be bogged down with self-doubting! Of course you aren't the best writer now. I'm not and I don't expect I ever will be. As long as you're writing because you love to write, and not for the approval of other people, it's good writing. Don't be downcast if people have a lot of criticizing at first. It's the feedback and the practice that will take you to where you want to go!
I am so thankful for the writers' group that took me in and pushed me to better myself as a writer. Because of them, I have two stories in a published book that I can point to and say to myself, "See? You can do it! Keep plugging along!" It is such an encouragement for a beginner like me.
As they say, if you write, you're a writer whether you have a book published or not! If you like it, do it. And that is why I can proudly say, "I write."